1- Humanity.
I’ve officially lost hope in humanity. More specifically, men. And even more specifically, the men I attract. Not one of my past boyfriends have proved to me that they’re different. They’ve only proved that they’re all the same sex-starved pricks who think about one thing and one thing only. They’ve all fed be different bullshit like, “I’ll love you until the day I die”, “I don’t get why I’m so comfortable around you…but I am”, “I’m not in this for the physicalities”, and my personal favourite, “I’ve never felt so close to anyone before.” I guess I’m wrong. I guess they’re different in some form, because they did feed me different bullshit. And I guess it’s also my fault for believing them, but what can I say. I have daddy issues. I crave male attention. I’ll be the first to admit that. I just thought it wouldn’t be this heartbreaking and disgusting.
And as for women. They disgust me almost as much for falling for it and eventually not caring about what’s being done. Sex is not the answer, ladies. It won’t make them love you. It won’t solve your problems. Once they get what they want, do you really think they’re going to stick around? Think about it.
- July 22 2k10
2- I was just thinking…
that if you were a fly on the wall, and you followed me around my entire life, experiencing the things i’ve experienced, feeling the things i’ve felt, seeing the things i’ve seen, and hearing some of the things i’ve heard, you’d be awestruck. i may seem like i’ve got it easy. and admittedly at this point in my life i do, but it certainly wasn’t always that way.
i have family problems up the ass! everyone does! ones that i don’t think you could fully comprehend unless given the entirety of the story. but maybe you do. who knows. all i know is that do not assume i haven’t been through my fair share of shit because believe me, i have. but you want to know the difference between me and most people? look at me now. i don’t blame what’s happened to me on my choices today. although, my strongest opinions are based off of certain…. events and those events have driven me to become the strong person i am today.
maybe one day you’ll be the lucky one to hear my life story. maybe.
don’t let others run your life
- August 1, 2k10
3 - I refuse
to be your your friend because it’s convenient for you. just because we now live 10 minutes away doesn’t mean you can call on me whenever you’re bored or lonely. when you lived 45 minutes away i didn’t even cross your mind unless she wasn’t there, did i?
i refuse to be your easy lay, i thought i made that perfectly clear. you had your chance with me and you couldn’t keep it in your pants, so you blew it. it’s too late
- August 2, 2k10
4 - i don’t know what to title this one.
gotta love it when guys take advantage of how you feel about them. you’d think that after all this time i would have figured it out. but nope. i’m just attracted to assholes and i hope that that new guy will be different. but he never is.